Wontgetfooledagain’s Weblog

I got a bill today for my gyno appointment.  I went in like November or something and they said that I wouldn’t be charged because my insurance incovered it.  Now, today, I got a bill for 96 dollars saying that I have to pay half of my appointment fees.  That’s a lot of fucking money for my vagina to be checked.  I don’t think I should ever have to pay to get my vagina checked, because seriously, what if I couldn’t afford it?  Then would my vagina not get serviced?  What the fuck? I think out of all my parts that testing my birth giving parts are pretty important and vital. 

 Social Health Care, think of those people who couldn’t afford even that.  Or like my dad, who got cancer and his bills were so expensive, that my dad tried to hold down an entire business while going through Chemo every single day and slowly dying worring about keeping his business open for his insurance.  We were too lucky too, he had enough money to subsize the costs that insurance was making him pay.  But, he worried, and he suffered, and when you are sick and dying you definately do not want to think about how you are going to pay for insurance. 

 I shouldn’t have to pay for tests, or any part of what should make me survive as a human.

 Social Health Care for all!

My job is so easy.  I like that I can make money with it but it is boring.  I can enjoy it if I try, but I don’t.  I meet interesting people.  They are funny.  They are from all around the world, China, Japan, Thailand, Israel, Brazil, Italy, Germany, Scandanavia, Iive had 1 or 2 from Africa like Kenya, France, Argentina, Mexico, and some live in America but English is their second language.  They all do different things and have fierce opinions of America and Americans.  When we have political conversations they all agree that they hate our president, which is sad.  I like talking to them when the topic is politics or art.  Still, I get distracted.  I am writing right now and some guy is talking about his life goals.  I just can’t ever focus on these people because, I dunno it’s  a big investment.  I like getting paid for working 45 minute hours and getting breaks  for 15 minutes.

 I do well, I make the students laugh and teach them, I hope.  Who knows.

 I hope no one I work for reads this. 

I was listening to Amy Weinhouse today.  I like her, she’s vibey and she makes me feel funky.  She’s all hip and whatnot, and isn’t she in jail and rehab and really fucked?  That sucks. 

Hillary Clinton is still loosing but she is not giving up, a corny underdog story, but neither are underdogs with all their money.

 So, I got offered this nannying job. It’s a pretty sweet deal, 4 days a week good pay 5 hours a day.  A secure opportunity, they want me for about 2 years.   I even told them about the trips I am planning for the summer and September, and they said they think they can accomidate as long as I babysit durin the summer.  It’s so wierd because I feel like that is too much of a commitment.  I know I can go away but what if I want to stay longer?  What if I want to go to South America this December?  I mean I’d feel so guilty asking off for all this time.  I also think about if I feel like doing something different on a Wed.  I like being able to pick up classes online, but it is not enough money. 

 Also, the people I nanny/ babysit for are unbelievable.  They are the greatest family and I don’t want to jepordize working for them and now not being available enough.  They are the coolest , hippie-ist , new age parents , they rock.  They speak to their kids like adults but have so much neato love for them.  The little girl is Maya  and I wrote something else about her. 

 I am afraid of commiting to any type of permanant job.  I need to go to grad school and figure shit out.

This is the first time in my life I have been really interested in what is happening in politics.   I actually had a flashback today about Bill Clinton in 92, I think.  I remember my elementary school announcing him as the winner and us all cheering.  What a great moment and that was 15 years ago.  Politics haven’t inspired me since then.  How great is it that I’m back in the game. 

 I’ve been watching all of the recoculous information on TV about the election today.  Sometimes I wonder to myself what the fuck is going on.  I have no idea where they get their ideas. 

 Hillary is winning and I am excited.  I am connected and know she can win.  I have never thought about how important this is, and how awesome it is that we have 3 candidates and I dislike none of them.  What a position to be in.

 I am watching the results come in live and I am on a high right now (both kinds).  Hillary is in the lead and I feel like it is important to me.

What is the difference between a caucus and a primary?  I think a caucus has people standing around and chatting?

Health care, freedom, no war, an economic surplus, and some rebirth are all coming to us.  We are doing good things for monther nature, we are becoming more aware of the issues we are facing and things are looking upwards for our world.  We are living in some inspirational times.  I am psyched to see what goes down in the next few years.  It is going to be chaotic and ever changing, but the times they will be a changin’, get ready for it.